The Cozy Old "Farmhouse": confessions

Dirty little secrets.

Everyone has one right? Whether they want to admit to it or not, it's there...somewhere.

In the past, I've been labeled as someone who "has it all together;" "house is always perfect;" "writes a blog;" "throws cute parties;" and people ask "How do you do it all?!?" I am always surprised and perplexed when someone admits they think that of me, because the answer is, I don't! I am so far from "together."

And today I'm going to admit to one of my {many} weaknesses, but this one is my "dirty little secret." The worst of the worst. I question my own sanity in showing you this.

Warning: This post is not for the faint of heart. If you fear you will succumb to a heart attack or collapse into a fit of epileptic seizures from the horrors contained within, then I suggest you exit out immediately and pretend you never stumbled across this post.

Ok. Here goes.

My dirty little secret is........our master bedroom is almost always a horrid mess!! The rest the house generally looks at least halfway presentable, but not this upstairs room. It has been plain and boring, undecorated, and usually messy for over a year now (ever since we moved into this house).

When we were getting ready to move from our old house to this one I decided it was time for a change in the master bedroom. It wasn't that I hated the decor or anything, but we had it for 8 years by then and I was just ready for something new. So I got rid of it all. Everything. Except the dresser. Then we sort of inherited the antique bed.

But the problem was nothing ever inspired me. At one point I thought I wanted this, but then I'd change my mind to that, and around and around I'd go, never committing to anything. Well....you know how if a room doesn't look pretty and put together it's so much easier to let it get cluttered and unkempt? At least that's how it is for me.

The dirty truth is that the above picture isn't all of it. The rest of the room looks like this.

And this.

Feeling any twinges yet? Need some Nitro? Don't say I didn't warn you.

Ours is a split level home and the upstairs is mostly one big room that serves as our bedroom and my craft/scrapbook/kids art room. There's also a bathroom, and attic access up there. The bathroom is decorated very nicely and 90% of the time it's fairly clean. But not so much for the rest of the upstairs.

There are piles of the kids' outgrown clothing waiting to be put away in the attic, their toys are generally strewn about e.v.e.r.y.w.h.e.r.e., my crafting/sewing table hasn't been cleaned off in..........I don't even know how long, my unused scrapbooking armoire is a horrible unorganized mess on the inside, and the list goes on and on. I just have had no motivation to keep it looking nice. It's so bad that I feel like a hypocrite every time I make my daughter clean her room.

So, that has been my embarrassing secret that I've done my best to keep hidden for the past year.

Not anymore apparently.

Alas, I am not so perfect. So very far from it.

BUT.....I admit all of that to tell you this...hope is on the horizon! I finally finally finally found a bedroom set that I fell in love with and feel excited about, and I cannot wait to begin pulling it all together. And having a reason to keep it looking nice. I'm so very tired of all that mess.

source

I found it at Kohls, bought it during a 50% off sale, used an additional 20% off, plus got $40 Kohls cash back from it. But even so, for me it was a HUGE splurge, I never spend that kind of money. But I didn't cut into our budget money for it, I had birthday/Christmas/etc money hoarded away and I used that. So I didn't feel quite so guilty about it. : )

It could very easily go in the direction of French Country (not my style) so I plan to give it a more rustic farmhouse spin. 'Cause that's how I roll.

Anyhoosie, exciting changes are coming our way! I'll keep you updated as I go.

That is, if you're still breathing.